The Butterfly Effect

I’ve had a particularly hard time finding my voice and tone today. Sleep has alluded me all week with Easter and this massive date coming upon me. It’s DEFINITELY not a #yellyvoice I find nor have used. I am profoundly troubled and amazed and defeated??? that Lily LaRue has been gone 3 years. It feels…

Love for Lily 3.0

After a few days of rest and (still) emptying out cars and trunks of Love for Lily boxes, I have had time to reflect. I would be remiss and negligent in attempting to Facebook tag all of you who made Love For Lily – Annual Lily LaRue Foundation Golf Outing 3.0 the amazing and successful…

Strawberry Moon 2016

The summer solstice has always been honored and revered in my gypsy life. I come from a long line of European farmers, Vikings and warriors and gatherers;those that have traveled,lived and thrived from and of the Earth. I have always sought out #thewheelinthesky. The four elements of earth air fire water has been venerated annually…

April 6, 2016

     My words will not come easily nor confidently today. I knew this. This is regular calendar day by any other standards except my own. A year ago today our Lily LaRue left  us. She was six years old. She was diagnosed with DIPG(diffuse intrinsic pontine glioma) on May 4, 2014. She fought for 11…

Leap Year

This 2016 February month is not the one I would have chosen as a leap year. The one with an extra day. I would have preferred having an extra day with my Lily LaRue in 2015, who would then, unknowingly,  leave this earth too soon ; leave my arms,  2 months later, April 6, 2015….

#ifyoudontknownowyouknow

I have tried to post our March  so many times. I have draft after draft. All incomplete thoughts- memories, accounts. Everything. All of it so I can’t forget or think it was just a nightmare. Or a dream. March was absolutely filled with stellar and amazing *amazing* firsts and dreams. Lily milked and named cows…